These last few years have been really hard at times, but whether I can see it or not, God has been so faithful!
Even though I can look back now and see where God's hand was in many of the situations, I am still unsure of why we had to go through certain things. There are things that don't make any sense to me and I'm not sure if they ever will or not.
I do know that God has called me to walk in faith and because of that I am trusting that these things were necessary or He wouldn't have allowed them to happen.
I say that completely by faith because at times I still deal with lots of different emotions. I still get upset and even angry sometimes, but I do know that even if I am not ready to completely give these situations over to Him at that moment, He will be waiting when I am.
Before now I have always held onto things and let them control my thoughts, emotions, etc. But now, even though I haven't fully given everything over to God, I am slowly beginning to release these things to Him. Even when these things come to mind, I am trying not to dwell on them anymore.
And God knows that I'm not perfect nor will I ever be. He's not angry with me that I still struggle with things, but He gives me His mercy whenever I am not strong and still covers me when I don't want to be touched.
Friday, November 16, 2007
Wednesday, November 14, 2007
Thought This Was Awesome...
Not only do I love this movie, but paired with this song, many of the scenes in this video remind me so much of my walk with God over the last few years!
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
Adopting... or not???
A few people know that we have been considering adopting a little one for a while. We haven't talked about it lately because we feel that we are currently going through a process to prepare us physically and financially so that we can adopt. We are also waiting on God and His timing if this is to happen.
Since I began losing weight several months ago, I have been a little bit confused as to whether we will have another biological child before we go through with adoption. I have a weird feeling that as soon as I reach my goal that I will probably get pregnant. Of course, I was unable to get pregnant before I starting gaining the extra weight and when I did get pregnant, it was an absolute miracle. (I'll be sure to share that story soon in another post!) Not sure if this is just me or if it is in fact God telling us to wait a bit longer before beginning the adoption process. ???
As I said, we haven't really talked about adoption lately even between the two of us. We sent in a preliminary application last December and was told that we would more than likely be able to proceed with an adoption with no problems. Even with that being said, along with wanting to be a lot more financially secure, in April we felt that we should wait another year before starting anything.
We have always felt that God was leading us to adopt from China. I know that there are plenty of babies here in the US as well as a lot of other places. We simply feel called to go to China. And I understand all the new restrictions and that waiting time has gotten even longer, but I still feel God saying China.
I know that God may change His mind and redirect our path at some point. I also know that sometimes God takes us down a certain path to lead us to another one that may be totally different than the one we started on. And if we are to have another biological child anytime soon, I would rather wait until that child is at least a few years old before adopting. Regardless of when it will happen, I feel in my heart that at some point in our lives we will be adopting a child... maybe even several children. I don't think God would have given us this desire so strongly if we weren't supposed to.
Anyway, a couple of days ago I received an email from the adoption agency and I decided to go to their website. It's the first time I've been there in a while. As I read through the articles and looked at all the pictures, I prayed and asked God to remind me if this was still in His will for us to do this. My heart became heavy once again and I realized that the desire is still very much there!
I got off the computer a little bit later and while I was spending time with DS watching one of our cartoons, I noticed there was something flying around. Then I saw two, then three and then I noticed a few more. Finally, I realized that these were lady bugs! Since then, we have had a lady bug invasion and even noticed that almost the entire ledge over our front porch was covered with them!!!
If you know anything about China, you know that lady bugs are a symbol of good luck and have also become the symbol of hope for adoptive parents waiting for their new babies! Coincidence or could this be another confirmation???
I guess we'll see... :-)
Since I began losing weight several months ago, I have been a little bit confused as to whether we will have another biological child before we go through with adoption. I have a weird feeling that as soon as I reach my goal that I will probably get pregnant. Of course, I was unable to get pregnant before I starting gaining the extra weight and when I did get pregnant, it was an absolute miracle. (I'll be sure to share that story soon in another post!) Not sure if this is just me or if it is in fact God telling us to wait a bit longer before beginning the adoption process. ???
As I said, we haven't really talked about adoption lately even between the two of us. We sent in a preliminary application last December and was told that we would more than likely be able to proceed with an adoption with no problems. Even with that being said, along with wanting to be a lot more financially secure, in April we felt that we should wait another year before starting anything.
We have always felt that God was leading us to adopt from China. I know that there are plenty of babies here in the US as well as a lot of other places. We simply feel called to go to China. And I understand all the new restrictions and that waiting time has gotten even longer, but I still feel God saying China.
I know that God may change His mind and redirect our path at some point. I also know that sometimes God takes us down a certain path to lead us to another one that may be totally different than the one we started on. And if we are to have another biological child anytime soon, I would rather wait until that child is at least a few years old before adopting. Regardless of when it will happen, I feel in my heart that at some point in our lives we will be adopting a child... maybe even several children. I don't think God would have given us this desire so strongly if we weren't supposed to.
Anyway, a couple of days ago I received an email from the adoption agency and I decided to go to their website. It's the first time I've been there in a while. As I read through the articles and looked at all the pictures, I prayed and asked God to remind me if this was still in His will for us to do this. My heart became heavy once again and I realized that the desire is still very much there!
I got off the computer a little bit later and while I was spending time with DS watching one of our cartoons, I noticed there was something flying around. Then I saw two, then three and then I noticed a few more. Finally, I realized that these were lady bugs! Since then, we have had a lady bug invasion and even noticed that almost the entire ledge over our front porch was covered with them!!!
If you know anything about China, you know that lady bugs are a symbol of good luck and have also become the symbol of hope for adoptive parents waiting for their new babies! Coincidence or could this be another confirmation???
I guess we'll see... :-)
Monday, November 12, 2007
Sunday, November 11, 2007
PRAYER REQUEST SUNDAY
My sister, Alicia ---To have a baby. No luck for the last 4 yrs.
My aunt, Thomassene --- has herniated disc and may need surgery.
Nancy - may have lyme disease
Rodney Cain -- is a diabetic, part of his foot has already been amputated. May need to have whole foot amputated. Also is having kidney problems
Harriet - depression esp this time of year from deaths in the family.
Rita Moore - her husband fell and broke hip in 4 places
Betty Whitlow -- has appt. with Heart Doctor on Dec 27
Loretta--Dad in hospital and husband had to have emergency appendectomy early Sat morning.
Our Church - building a new church building, praying God's continued favor over this project.
Me - As I try to lose weight this week! That I will not grow weary, but continue to rely on God during this process.
Also, a friend of mine, Tanya, was killed in a car accident on Friday. Please remember her family, esp the three children she left behind!
Please take a moment and pray for all of these requests. (I will post updates as soon as I get them.)
If you have a prayer request, please leave a comment or email me at thomasjaz3@bellsouth.net with your request. And please be sure to email or leave another comment with any praise reports as well!!!
Thanks!!! :-)
Monday, November 5, 2007
MONDAY MEANDERINGS
To see my Monday Meanderings post, please go to my homeschooling blog at www.homeschoolblogger.com/thomasjaz1999 .
Saturday, November 3, 2007
Prayer Request Sunday
Ally Keown--teacher--gave birth to a baby boy which was in birth canal 45 mins. without oxygen. He is in ICU and breathing on his own. Things seem to look good. Please keep this family lifted. Little Rylan could have brain damage or seizures from lack of oxygen for so long.
For more requests, please see:
http://www.homeschoolblogger.com/socalval/420648/
http://www.homeschoolblogger.com/socalval/420648/
Please take a moment and pray for all of these requests. (I will post updates as soon as I get them.)
If you have a prayer request, please leave a comment or email me at thomasjaz3@bellsouth.net with your request. And please be sure to email or leave another comment with any praise reports as well!!!
Thanks!!! :-)
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